Staying Creative in Complexity
Apparent Loss of Control
Losing control is so bad, right? Being past the point of comfort and far away from your normal
center in public can be scary and panic laden for some. Loss of control in any form in public, in
your private moments, among friends or competition is usually avoided as one of those thought
patterns that take away our ease, our 'Me'. Who would we be if we didn't care enough, didn't
control how we acted or were perceived? How will others see us if we lose control? Weak?
Stupid? Non-professional? Less than? Foolish and capricious?
What about losing control of attachments? Attachments that tend to own more of who you are
than what is owned. Still bad? Losing the control of the impulse to add to things and thoughts to
the idea we have of our self to amplify that self. Wanting, desiring, searching for what might
better serve our selves in the future is a constant pastime for most folks simply trying to make a
better life, a better future, a better illusion. What gave you the idea that you were not complete
and needed these things you seek? There is no judgement involved in these questions, rather just a start of an inquiry that
may assist in defining in a more real capacity of who you really are in relation to what is or not is in control in your life.
This is a low grade intellectual exercise, but there is a deeper component to this path if carried out as a personal inquiry. A
bit more on that later. For now, what is your connection to control in your life? Beyond the obvious and necessary control
events needed to function and maintain health and safety for all involved, the need or desire to control beyond these stages
bear further examination. The examination can be helpful in freeing up some blocked chunk that put a veil over why you
are actually trying to control objects, others, time and needing to be viewed and understood a certain way to fulfill the ego.
The questioning about what place control has in your life can a