~ The Focus of Life ~
By Austin Osman Spare
The Mutterings of Aaos
"Now for reality"
"Aàos recovers from the Death Posture
"Nature is more atrocious"
"The effort of remembering in the Valley of Fear."
KIA OF THE EFFIGIES SPEAKS OF ZOS IN SOLILOQUY:
I bring a sword that contains its own medicine: The sour milk that cureth the body.
Prepare to meet God, the omnifarious believing,-Thyself the living truth. Die not to spare,
but that the world may perish. Nature is more atrocious. Learning all things from Thee in
the most sinister way for representation: from thy thought to become thereafter. Having
suffered pleasure and pain, gladly dost thou deny the things of existence for freedom of
desire-from this sorry mess of inequality-once so desired. And is fear of desire. The
addition of the 'I' of a greater illusion. Desire is the conception I and induces Thou. There
is neither thou nor I nor a third person-loosing this consciousness by unity of I and Self;
there would be no limit to consciousness in sexuality. Isolation in ecstasy, the final
inducement, is enough-But, procreate thou alone! Speak not to serve but to scoff. Hearest
thou, heaven's loud guffaw? Directly the mouth opens it speaks righteousness. In the
ecstatic laughter of men I hear their volition towards release. How can I speak that for
which I have necessitated silence? Salvation shall be Unsay all things: and true, as is
time, that speaketh all things. Of what use are hints or stage whispers? True wisdom
cannot be expressed by articulate sounds. The language of fools-is words. In the labyrinth
of the alphabet the truth is hidden. It is one thing repeated many times. Confined within
the limits or rationalism; no guess has yet answered. O Zos, thou art fallen into the
involuntary accident of birth and rebirth into the incarnating ideas of women. A partial
sexuality entangled in the morass of sensual law. On earth the circle was fabricated. The
origin of all things is the complex self. How shall